Hey Sis! I want to share a bit about deliverance. The definition of deliverance is the action of being rescued or set free. My ministry is based on how God heard my cries in prayer and that He delivered me from an abusive narcissistic relationship that I had been in for seven years. In the eight months that it took from my very first cry in prayer until the day that I was set free, I spent time studying my bible, listening to sermons, journaling (written prayers), fasting, and praying. These things assisted me in developing spiritually as my Heavenly Father was delivering me spiritually in many ways.
The moment that I woke up on July 28, 2020 I had no idea that it was the day of my rescue. This person had initiated another one his narcissistic attacks lasting hours and I just couldn't take it anymore! I cried in prayer (actual tears) and asked God for a miracle and to please help me. He spoke to my heart and we had a conversation. Most times when He speaks to you it will be based on the scriptures in the Holy Bible. I remember driving home while crying and praying and I heard God speak to my heart. He said " You said that you believe in me so where is your faith in me?" I responded and said "I do have faith in you." He then said "then leave because I said in my word that you are to fear no man." I thought about it and there are so many scriptures in the bible that speaks about this topic. One of them is Isaiah 51:12.
I was afraid of this man. He was 6'3'' tall and weighed 300lbs. When he was angry it was very frightening! He would ball his fist and grit his teeth and sometimes he would launch forward as if he was going to punch me only stopping inches from my face. I thought that I needed to wait until I could somehow gather the means to move to another state so that I wouldn't have to live in the same city as him. I was afraid that he would locate me and harm me and my child. I had that thought almost as soon as God said not to fear any man. As soon as I thought about the plan I had then God spoke to me again through his word. He said "there is a way that seems right to a man , but its end is the way of death." I instantly thought about the dreams that I had of this person trying to kill me! I thought oh goodness, in my effort to try to go my own way ( which was my plan to save up to move) it could have very well resulted in my life being taken in that violent relationship!
I instantly begin to pack my clothes and I instructed my daughter to do the same! I called my pastor and asked for help. He navigated me to a Women's Recovery Home for women in need of help. My daughter and I packed up some suitcases and our cat and we left that house and never looked back! God is faithful to do just as he said He will , but it does require some cooperation from you as well. That day He delivered me from the hands of my abusive ex fiancé but he also delivered me from the spirits of fear, loneliness, and pride. I was afraid of this man and that is exactly what he needed in order to enslave me emotionally in that relationship. There were so many reasons why I stayed in that relationship before the revelation of narcissism in 2019. I was afraid of being alone and starting over by myself. I struggled with feeling unloved, unworthy, and low esteem. I was prideful in the sense of me trying to do things all by myself (plans to save and move and enduring the abuse until that day).
I am here to tell you that when you spend time in the word of God, pray, and develop your Daddy/Daughter relationship with HIm, then He will speak to your heart, mind, spirit, and soul. It is often in the form of thoughts or what I like to call "downloads from God". As I shared earlier in this blog, I had a full conversation with God in my mind as He was encouraging and strengthening me to finally leave this abusive man and to no longer stay in the prison that he cultivated for me. Our Heavenly Father wants to deliver the rest of His daughters who are where I used to be. My spiritual eyes didn't open up to the spiritual abuse from the narcissist until I gave my life to Jesus Christ and cried out in prayer for help. That very day was the day that deliverance was activated. It took time for me to read, study,learn, access, process, believe, and receive. Sis I want to tell you that deliverance is here for you to if you would only believe and receive Jesus Christ today.
Please utilize the contact form on my blog website to send me personal prayer request, advice about your situation, and personal questions I will respond as time permits.Sis as I am a prayer warrior/intercessor for Christ I love you sis and be blessed!
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