Hey Sis! Welcome back to my blog ( my diary entries). When you take a look at this cover picture for today's entry, what comes to your mind? For me I instantly place myself there because this is definitely my type of aesthetic! I can smell a beautiful cup of caramel flavored coffee with hints of cinnamon, nutmeg, and chocolate. I envision this space being scented with candles, incense, or burning oils with tones of vanilla, amber, and jazmine. I hear smooth jazz playing and I can also smell something amazing baking in the oven, like a deep dish apple pie! All of this denotes a safe, warm, cozy, comforting place. When I look at this picture it is the very epitome of some of my prayers. I desire for my home that God will bless me with to be reminiscent of this photo. This will be the atmosphere of my safe place from this world.
I look at this picture and I instantly realize that my life before placing my crown back on my head and coming back home to Kingdom of God was the complete opposite. In my mind and throughout my experiences in life I was always in dangerous, cold, and painfully uncomfortable places. I was always being "shocked or agitated" in my mind, body, and soul by the spiritual attacks that I encountered daily in my mind and from my environments. I noticed that these constant states of attack or "shocks" led to my desperately desiring love, warmth, affection, safety, and acceptance. I have never felt safe in my entire life before coming back to my Heavenly Father. I had grown tired of the alienation, isolation, neglect, and worthlessness. Naturally no one desires to live that way.
It was this very thing that caused me to believe that a man or a relationship would solve all of these issues. I believe that is why I prefered the "big and tall" type of men. I believed that he would protect me and make me feel safe. I desperately wanted love, a family, a friend, and to feel like I deserved to experience something other than constant turmoil. In time I learned that the he never had any interest in my safety whatsoever. He wanted to extend my tears, trauma, fears, and cause me to feel alone and cold all the more. Through prayer, reading my bible, fasting, and hearing sermons I came to understand that it was the evil spirit living within him that craved to express this. It is a jezebel spirit that traffics in domination and control. I begin to learn more about my real source of safety and protection as I continued making baby steps and reading my bible. Psalm 91 is the perfect bible chapter that speaks about the safety and protection of our Heavenly Father, The Most High God of Israel.
Psalms 91:1-2 says "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust". The definition of refuge is a condition of being SAFE or SHELTERED from pursuit, danger, or trouble. The word fortress is defined as a person or thing not susceptible to influence or disturbance. My Heavenly Father spoke to me through this verse. I begin to shed tears instantly. He said that finally I chose to seek safety in the only place where true safety and protection can be obtained. He will protect me from all enemies. Those very spirits that tormented me through people ( family, friends, exes), environments, and negative self talk could not gain access because God was protecting me. I had to spend time reading and praying in order for me to receive these "Divine Holy Spirit Downloads".
One day I know that God will bless me with the first living or home environment that is filled with his Holy Spirit and stirs me just as todays cover photo. Every place that I have ever laid my head down to attempt to rest has always been toxic and littered with spiritual enemies. I draw comfort in knowing that my Abba loves me and will always provide me with a safe place within our relationship as I continue to learn more about him throughout his word. I encourage you today Sis to go into the safe place that connects your heart to his. He wants to provide you with all that you have been searching for Sis!
WE ARE A SISTERHOOD OF THE DAUGHTERS OF THE MOST HIGH GOD OF ISRAEL AND THIS IS A SAFE SPACE. PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT BELOW AND OPEN UP AS WE ARE ALL HEALING TOGETHER AND WE NEED THE SUPPORT OF OUR SISTERS IN CHRIST. NO SISTER IS TO FEEL AS IF SHE IS ALONE. YOU ARE NEVER ALONE SIS!
*** PLEASE UTILIZE THE CONTACT FORM ON MY BLOG WEBSITE TO SEND ME PERSONAL PRAYER REQUESTS, ADVICE ABOUT YOUR SITUATION, AND PERSONAL QUESTIONS. I WILL RESPOND AS TIME PERMITS SIS AS I AM A PRAYER WARRIOR/INTERCESSOR FOR CHRIST. I LOVE YOU SIS AND BE BLESSED!***
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